im not me

feel unsecure now =(
my attitude again!my behavior again!
no people will say:"chenyee, you're so good to me" love u!"
am i so bad to everyone?
maybe, i dont know!
but i also want people go through my GOOD side, not only BAD side!
anyone can tell me how to change???!!
who know i didnt try to be good? im trying hard everytime!

arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!
i also need a place let me feel im important!
friend,
family,
even my love one,
i cant found a place, people can let me feel i can proud for them!
i just a shit for everyone!
ya, whatever i do is just a shit!
im not me,i dont know who i am now!seriously..


LOST!! *serious shit